"WHY ARE YOU DOING THIS TO YOURSELF?!?!"

Ah, yes... that old chestnut. *Dr. Evil voice*

"Why in the hell would you do this?" That seems to be the thought of a lot of people outside of the fetish. To be honest, likely a mix of insanity and pure pleasure. I found pumping on some porn sites back in the day (like 20 years ago) and that led me to saline, N2O, and ultimately silicone. I was obsessed with it. I LOVED the size. About 90% of my orgasms when alone have been watching videos of guys with monstrously large meat fumble around and play with their enormous packages. I always knew I wanted that for myself, and not just some added size for my ego, I wanted to be like those MASSIVE guys I saw struggling to live a normal life with the size of their package. So, after years of being a chicken shit and thinking I could get by with pumping and saline infusions... I finally took the plunge and ordered my first 100ccs. Shortly after it arrived, I was in my bathroom altering my junk for the rest of my life. That first injection was about 7 years prior to this post. Since then, I've added 100ccs to my cock and 550ccs to my sac. (At the time of this writing. I've got more on the way as I type this.) 

"Is it safe??" Yes, and also absolutely the fuck not! There's no margin for error here. One fuck up and you'll likely be a corpse in a couple of days. Silicone and your circulatory system are not friends and if it gets in there, your lungs won't be happy about it. Otherwise, once it's settled and in place, it's pretty chill for the most part. However, infection in the silicone area is near impossible to heal, and there's quite a few other variables that could lead to issues down the road. 

"What does it feel like?" Hard to say as every guy carries it a little differently. Even on myself, my cock is pretty soft and squishy and my sac is firmer consistency. Think chewed bubble gum vs play-doh. I'm certainly curious as to how things will change as I continue to add more. Some guys I've met up with are a the same overall consistency all over, and I kinda enjoy that more. One thing about silicone... you can do your best to shape it as it encapsulates or settles, but ultimately it's going to be a different experience for pretty much everyone. 

"How big do you plan to go?" I haven't fully got an answer for this one. To put it simply, I want to be absolutely massive. I consider absolutely massive to be anything above 2500-3000ccs and beyond. So I guess you could say the smallest I see myself is about 5 times my current size. Which will admittedly be HUGE... but I wanna be MASSIVE. Every time I add, I'm used to the size in about two weeks after it's healed and am back to looking to the future of the size I really want to be. (I'll add some inspiration pics so you have an idea of what I have in mind.)

"What do other guys say about it?" This is pretty much a case by case basis. To put it simply, about 80% of "normal" people find it disgusting or weird. It's not a fun way to be rejected when something so important to you is appalling to someone else. But I knew that going into this and accept it as part of life. I very rarely attempt a sexual interaction with anyone outside of the silicone community. Protecting my own sanity is my top priority here, so I attempt to insulate myself from the negativity cause guys on the hookup apps can be straight up mean and then block you after making you feel completely fucked up. But, I love it and I wouldn't change it or stop growing for anyone's interpretation of it or my reasons for doing it.

Hope that helps clear things up a bit. As I've said under other posts, if I think of anything else to add I'll update this post in the future. 

-Jay